Multe carti scrise, multe nopti pierdute langa o tigara, o cafea, ai inceput sa scrii o noua carte.Ai trecut de jumatate, te apropii de sfarsit si iti dai seama cu uimire, ca nu mai sti sa termini cartea, datorita schimbarilor facute pe parcurs, vechiul sfarsit care il aveai in minte, acum nu se mai potriveste. Desi tu ai inceput bine, aveai ,,scenariu" bine imbibat in minte. Totusi cum se poate? Atatia ani de chin si truda in facultatea de jurnalism si pregatirea de la teatru te-au ,,lasat" dintr-o data??
Ai calatorit frumos de la Brasov la Bucuresti, nu ai avut chief de tren, de mizeria din el, limbajul urat, sau poate nu e' unul dintre acesti factori, ci pur si simplu ai vrut sa mai schimbi ceva. Ai luat autocarul , te'ai lipit cu fruntea de geam si ai lasat informatiile exterioare sa iti intre in creier, frumos nu? Tara asta e cum e, dar ce-i al ei, ii al ei. Am calatorit si eu prin Europa, dar pot sa spun ca nu dau Romania pe multe locatii din Europa , nu ma intreba de ce, nu sunt un om de prost gust nici nu ma atrage prostia,caci sa fim seriosi aceasta e tara cu o subcultura mare, dar spre deosebire de altii eu nu uit un factor foarte important: Suntem o tara propiu-zisa numai din 1918.Pe cand celelalte tari europene isi au inceputul de secole bune, sa nu uitam asta dragi romani, suntem cum suntem , dar avem secole in spate.Nu cred, deci eu nu cred, ca suntem toti romanii chiar asa batuti in cap, ca in secole sa nu fi fost tara asta altcumva, ori se distrugea, ori devenea mai buna. Bun revenire la subiect, te uiti, iti place ce vezi, totul verde, plin de recolte de grau, floarea soarelui, oameni simplii, care isi vad de treaba lor, dar tu parca ii vezi in reluare, creierul ii analizeaza, zambesti frumos, cand iti dai seama ca totusii, asa ,,urati" cum suntem vazuti, chiar daca nu recunoastem, avem si ce aprecia la noi romanii. Mergi acasa te asezi frumos pe scaun, iei creionul, te apuci frumos si iti termini cartea, adaugand personajului, care este unul fictiv si negativ, faptul ca oricat de rau ar fi, are si o parte frumoasa in el... Estetica uratului, se stie nu?
Deci: e vorba de geniu? Sau de o buna inspiratie?
Many books written, many nights lost near a cigarette, coffee, you start writing a new book, you finish a half of it, you get closer to the end and you realize with amazement,that you don't know how to finish the book, due to changes made by course, the old end you had in mind, now it no longer fits.Although you have started well, haved the scenario good ,,soaked" in mind. But how then? Many years of anguish and hard work in journalism and the theater ,has "left" suddenly like this?
You've traveled from Brasov to Bucharest, you didn't want to take the train,because of the misery of it,the bad language, or not 'one of these factors but you simply want to change something this time...So you take the Bus, you take a sit, and you look out the window, yea is nice huh? This country is disorganized, backward, but it's beautiful, and nobody can deny it, what is her is her.Many are complaining about Romania,but I don't look that way, unlike many others, which forget something, this country is not even a century old, while other European countries are united by centuries..Back to the topic.You look, you like what you see, all green, full of crops, wheat, sunflowers, ordinary people, who are doing their work, but you seemed to see these thing on replay, your brain analyzes everything. You ,,bite" a smile, yet you realize that, so 'ugly' as we are, even if we don't recognize, we have to appreciate our brothers,descendants of people who died uniting this country. So you go home, sit nicely on the chair, take a pencil, you take it nice, and you finish the book,adding to your book principal character, which is a S.F. and negative,incomprehensible personage , that no matter how bad it is,it has a nice part and he decide to retire somewhere to be alone and forgotten... So every ugly thing has a nice part...
So, it's about being a genius? Or it's about having a good inspiration at the right moment?
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